FEATURED POETRY: After Death by Guillian Palcone

beep...beeep...beeeep...beep

beeeep...be..bee..beep...beep

Every beat of my heart tracks

the line in the monitor from

going up and down, but I know

that the steady rise and fall of my

chest is coming to its end

the lines dashed into a straight line

protruding the sound of my death

I hear the doctor projecting

the word "clear!" four times but

I guess it was never clear to me

everything is blurred and disordered

the room that was once filled with the

sound of my heart rate was now filled

with sobs and shaky mumbles of

the people

three...two...and...one

beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

I gasped the last thick air coming from

the outside, thinking that it might

mystically awaken my soul and put it

back from where it belong

so I can utter the last words from

within and forget about how this lump

refrains me from going back but

the words are lost, even my soul

Everything still echoes in my head

I was slowly slipping away

from the four corners of this white

room, from the heart rate that I

once heard inside me, from the life

that I've been dealing with

I was struggling to catch a breath

to be able to breathe and to be able

to speak again, I want to scream so they

can hear that I am here, I want them

to stop from crying and know that I am alive

Alive in a very great place, standing still

and waiting to be noticed by them

I am glowing like a blue star in winter

and blooming like a flower in autumn

I glanced at my skin

its transparent and glowing

I thought this effect is only in movies but

it never occurred to me that I'm having

a delusional mind trying to fool myself

that I can come back

The clouds opened with deep

exhalation from the light that strikes

the whole place with a luminous effect

giving the glow, the bloom, and the joy

that everyone finds but none succeed

I am awed, no words can project

the dainty feeling inside me

my naked eyes witnessed the picturesque

beauty that no one has ever seen

but here I am, walking towards the buoyant

paradise that is filled with complete positivity

Once, I was in the state of grief and delirium

from slipping away in the reality that I am

no longer breathing; I'm filled with endless

pain and madness inside  yet seeing a

surreal scenery is feels like living in the

world of fantasy that can never be real

Death waited for me to hold his hand and

walk with him towards the path of my end

it took me away from the life that I no longer

know what to do, he saved me from

the cliff that lures me to my early end and gives

me time to perish the seeds of my hopes

He put me to the spot where I can finally

summon myself to the lies and fears I embodied

He sang lullaby to my ears and tuck me in

the blanket of his comfort and slowly kissing me

while taking the last air of my being

 

They open their arms for me-

I sold myself to the boundless seas,

highest mountains, deathful cliffs

perished beings and cut antlers

giving me the face of serenity

and abundance

I've never been this happy-

for once I felt a furnace within me, the coals

of contentment is lit up by the fires of joy

igniting inside me building up a heat that

eternalize my existence